Dyeing Process UPDATED

I've recently been dying my hair. Well more like just bleaching it. The color I am actually going for is a white or gray. After that i will change it from lillac to light real on and off. This is my natural hair color 

Then I decided to dye it blonde but I already did a post about that so I'll just show you the results. This is before I dyed it again. In person it's more of a golden blonde but I didn't mind.

Then I decided to dye my hair yet again just because I was getting tired of it and I needed it lighter. I also decided to give my hair a break for about 3 weeks. 

 

As you can tell it didn't really change much. But I'm trying again. The parts that really did take to the dye are super baby blonde which is what I'm going for. I had my friend do it for me and well let's just say not all my hair took. Which is fine I will just redo those peaces.

This is the next day as you can see there are random brown spots from my roots comming in before and not all of it dying. After I bleached my hair I used a hair repair masque to make sure my hair stays healthy throughout this process 

I used the Hair Chemist Macadamia Oil deep repair masque. And actually as I'm writting this it is in my hair. But hopefully that will heal my hail so I can go again. Oh I almost forgot to say what products I used this time. I decided not to go with Splat. I went to Sally's and asked professionals and ended up getting many different lighteners but for this one I used the ion brand. 

Everything came together exept the developer. I also had to buy separate gloves. This stuff smells amazing well before you add the lightener. That smells like bleach. They recommender this because of the argon oil. It's suppose to help you hair stay moist so it won't dry out during the process and burn your scalp. I didn't feel a burn like I did before so I guess it works well. It's not the color I want yet but I'm working on it. 

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UPDATE 

I finally decided to do the lilac. Well kind of. I used BTZ Beyond the zone colour mousse. I didn't use it all so there is still some blonde left but it's only temporary. I actually added more and now it's almost all purple. I like these products because they wash off so I can mix it up with the colors

Hair Disaster Gone Right

Today I tried to do something different with my hair. And oh did it go wrong. I originally wanted to just have crimped waves. I wanted it to be big but since I couldn't find a crimper I though "oh hey I could probably just use a straightener. Well this is what happened 

Not only did my hair feel gross but it wasn't what I wanted so I have up halfway through and went for something else. So in went with space buns. Now when I had brown hair space buns in my opinion didn't look that good but now with the blond I am in love 

I think it looked adorable. And it also allows my eyebrows to shine.

This really worked for me because I somehow straightened my roots. I've also been using a hyaluronic lip plumping pen I had laying around and I can see a difference. 

I have small yet biggish lips that I love and anything that I can do to make them stand out naturally the better.

Now just because I love myself so much I'm going to post one more selfie of how I looked today. 

 

Here was my outfit some black high wasted shorts from target and a DIY daisy black shirt. I wasn't planning on going anywhere so I kept it comfortable. Also my phone case is from forever 21. 

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Talking on Phones

I don't want to sound like one of those old timy people but what ever happened to actually calling people on the phone instead of texting. I'm not saying that because I'm a hipster or anything. I'm saying this because I suck at texting. I am possible the worst texter I know. I don't even try anymore if there is nothing to talk about I will just not respond and I think that is cruel. And yes I know even in phone calls when there's nothing to talk about then there will be that awkward silence, but honestly I love that silence it's so nice. I am known for just sitting in silence for a long time. I guess that's where my neediness shows. As long as I can hear you breathing I know I'm not alone. 

But for me there are sort of downsides of talking on the phone. For one I will go insane. I can't sit still when I'm on the phone my heart rate goes up and I start to stutter but it feels nice. I will most likely be laughing through out the entire conversation out of nervousness. So I guess in reality it really isn't a downside. 

I could say more reasons like miss communications but that doesn't bother me. It's mostly just the feeling of knowing someone is there for you and that they stopped what they are doing just to talk to you. I don't know it makes me feel special.

Anyway that's it just a short expression of what I was just thinking about 

BYE

My Feminist Rant

Why is it so common for women to find out about their bodies by themselves. Why do i have to live most of my life thinking i'm the only on with problems that normal girls have. Society demands every woman and girl to be a certain way . Women have even started to hide what is normal which is damaging to other girls who don't have a mother to tell them what is normal for girls. I used to think no one would ever love me because I wasn't "normal". How is a 13 year old girl suppose to do when she sees some hair growing on her top lip? That's what pisses me off. The world has been dominated by men for hundreds of years and women were always there just for something nice to look at. To the world all we were good at was producing kids. So when something as common as body hair comes up no one dares to admit of having it. 

Something so common and natural is now found unattractive and a deal breaker. It doesn't matter if our bodies produce it to help us. Nope if your skin isn't like a hairless then you might as well just buy a million cats and get ready to be a spinster, well at least that's how society makes you feel. 

I wish for one day the pedestals for woman would vanish. Why is it okay for a guy to be overweight and still be adored by dozens of women, using the whole "oh he's like my teddy bear", but when a women doesn't have a bikini body she is just flat out fat and undesirable. The same goes for being skinny it's completely okay for a man to be so skinny you can see his ribs but when a girl who can't help her weight is seen as unhealthy and gross. There is no middle for woman. There will always be something wrong with them. 

Makes me think of what my future has to hold. Not to even mention sexism in the workplace that is a completely different rant all together.

For 16 years i have looked at these feminist wondering why they were always so bitter. I was so blinded at how fucked up this world actually is. I actually thought feminist were women who didn't love themselves looking for an excuse to blame the world for their problems. But now i see that the world is the reason for their problems. Makes me not even want to have a daughter. I wouldn't want her to try to live up to magazine standards. I don't want her too look up to something that isn't even real. I want her to know that the woman in magazines aren't even themselves. That the "magazine skinny" is attainable only through Photoshop.






SERIOUSLY???? WHHYYYYYY!?!?!?!?!?!


What is so wrong with these women's bodies that's you thought you actually had to change??????

I don't want to waist any more tears on wanting to be perfect. I will "fix" only what i want to "fix". I will only be my standard of pretty. This world is changing fast. Soon it will be a woman's world at least for the sake of all future daughters.

Thanks for listening

BYE

Foods I Want to Like Before I Grow Up

I'm very bad when it comes to trying new foods. I just believe that in order to be grown up you have to be willing to eat various of things and pretty much just enjoy them too. I hate going to restaurants and having to just eat chicken or pasta. I WANT THE SHRIMP OR CALAMARI OR WHATEVER THAT IS!

So here's a checklist of the foods i want to try before I grow up

1 SHRIMP
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Everyone loves shrimp. I want to love shrimp. I want to be able to order shrimp because it always looks so delicious and sometimes it's a side and i just feel that those two things would go perfect together but then i remember i can't stand the taste.

2. ANYTHING HOT


Now i'm Spanish i should love spicy food. My entire family loves it. My dad eats some of the hottest peppers I've ever tasted and actually enjoys it. I just want to lie spicy food mostly so i could handle my family's food. Also hot foods are good for loosing weight.

3.COFFEE


Coffee is some peoples morning starters. Like if they don't have a cup in the morning they can't function. When i'm tired an i need to get my day started i can't do that. I just force myself to fully wake up. Also coffee looks so good. Like the way people make cappuccinos and lattes. I want to drink and iced latte during the summer and a hot cappuccino in winter. I want to find out whatever that shot of espresso tastes like. But just the taste of it makes me want to spit it out.

4. SUSHI



Why does sushi look good yet nasty. I don't even know why i want to like it. I guess just so if i go to a Japanese restaurant i want to have the sushi?

5. ICE TEA


This stuff is straight from hell. Sweet tea or Ice tea what ever it's called is so disgusting to me. Like don't call yourself sweet if you're going to taste that bad. The only reason i want to like it is because when i order ice tea i don't want to have to wonder if it will actually taste good. I don't need that type of negativity in my life.

6. FISH

This is my last item that i want to like. Fish any type of fish. I don't thin it tastes good. What is horrible is when you think it's chicken and then it turns out to be fish. But i still want to enjoy fish.




Well that's it. Peanut butter used to be on that list but now i absolutely love it!

BYE

My Curly Hair

Today i wanted to talk about my hair. Mostly what i do with it and hopefully i could get some feed back with maybe what other people with curly hair manage theirs.

I was born with natural dark brown  medium extreme curls. As you can tell in the bellow picture (well other than the color)


Now i'm the only one in my family with this hair type. So i didn't have any guide to help me with my hair. I used to cut it constantly without knowing what it could make my hair look. I even had an unaccented cut that had the back of my hair shaven (that was an experience.) My hair looked like a midget rainbow it was just awful, and i also erased any picture from back then i couldn't stand it. But about 6 years later it finally grew back to what it is now. And I've used every product for curly hair. Until i realized that when they say curly hair they don't mean my type of curls. And i couldn't use ethnic hair products because my parents were afraid it would damage my hair since my curls weren't that tight. But finally i found a routine that worse for me. I might change because people have complained of the smell.

My hair routine consist of taking a shower everyday, not necessarily washing my hair everyday. Once i get out i have to get started on my hair right away or it will start drying and i need it wet for this process. I always brush my hair in the shower. ( yes i know this is bad for my hair but it works for me) I use Cantu Shea Butter leave in conditioner. It's only $4.99 and i suggest you get it.

Now i go through maybe 13 or 14 of these a year. I use a lot too each time. I make sure to get every hair on  my head in order for the outcome to look the same. I also make sure as i do my hair and wait for it to dry i never push any hair back because if i do then the lengths would not be the same.Now after my hair is covered in this stuff i grab a blow dryer and start with medium speed and heat and just try to dry it. After the entire hair is dry it would have gained some volume. This is what my hair looks like when it's medium dry using my hair dryer. For about 20 minutes. I stop after that time no matter what becaus ei don't want to damage my hair.

That is pretty much what i do with my hair. After my hair is done it looks bigger and softer and it actually takes less time then if i were to just let it dry naturally like i was doing before.

Now i have finally dyed my virgin hair. i was aiming for light blonde to even white or silver but it came out to more of a golden blonde with i think looks good. I am going lilac so i might have to add a few steps to my hair routine. I used the splat hair bleach. *WARNING* do not use the Splat hair dyes they will bleed everywhere and never get you to the color you want. 

Now the hair dyes might be terrible but the bleach is one of the best you can get. This is the one is used once to get this golden blonde.



p.s. i am not planing to dye my eyebrows. I love dark eyebrows with light hair i think it looks cool and sexy (yes i do find eyebrows sexy)

BYE